ugg. After weighing myself today I see I have quite an impressive weight gain since the wedding. Since its only been 8 weeks, that is pretty bad for my health as well. Why can I not find balance? Must I either gorge myself all the time or torture myself dieting? I really am happier when I'm fit and healthy, and with the gains I'm making in my own self discipline, maybe SOME of that can transfer to my eating/exercising habits? I'm doing a pretty good job cutting back on my evening wine, as well as simply waking up to do the MUCH needed work on my website/4tet non-profit status. And I cleaned some rooms of the house today. I don't want to approach the big 3 - 0 in the next three weeks feeling crappy about my appearance, and worse that I'm doing nothing to help myself. So I will reluctantly climb back on the wagon. And then into my car to go to step class.